Do you know that each day when I wake up, I pray that it will be the last day that I live in Saudi Arabia?
Do you know that each night when I sleep I pray that hearts will be softened and stars will align and that the Universe will eventually agree with me that this is not the place I should be living and that I will be able to peacefully and agreeably be able to go home, daughter in tow?
I survive on prayers and hopes and wishes. Forget day to day, I live from prayer to prayer. Seriously.
My latest prayer of course has been to be able to make a trip home this summer. At the suggestion of friends and family, I created a fund raising account in order to raise the money for the plane tickets that I wouldn’t have otherwise been able to come up with. I shared that fund raising page here, hoping that maybe those of my readers who were able to would donate.
Things have been moving along slowly despite a few emails complaining about the round-trip nature of my visit, and I’ve been humbled by the generosity of strangers. Every time I get notice of a donation, I end up in a heap of grateful tears, happy that I’m $10 or $20 closer to hugging my parents.
This evening, just as I was about to go to bed, I received an email from my GoFundMe page, letting me know that complaints have been made about the authenticity of the information I presented, and that if I could not confirm that the information was in fact true, my account would be shut down in 48 hours. I don’t have any information on the person(s) who filed the complaints, but to cover all my bases, I’m letting you all know.
I appreciate that so many of you, most of you perfect strangers, support me even though many of you don’t understand why I chose to come here and why I choose to stay. I understand that many of you downright disagree with my reasons and choices. I even get that some of you dislike me and the things I have to say here, and that’s ok with me.
Anyway, I am here tonight, when I should be sleeping, to ask you all a favor. I know it’s entertaining, perplexing, and maybe even a little bit exciting to have a look into a perfect stranger’s life. I know that to some of you the things you read here are out of this world and that my life at times reads like a novel. But please remember when you are reading these words that they are those of an actual human being. You finish a blog post, close the web page, and I’m still here. These pages that you scroll through catalog my life; in some cases the most difficult and emotional parts of it. I am real. These are real experiences. I’ve never told a lie about my life on this blog. Not one. And finally, despite opening parts of my life and myself to the public for the past 3 years, I have real feelings and your words and your actions have the power to uplift or to destroy them, so please choose carefully.
If you dislike me or disagree with what I have to say, please move along.
If you’re tired of getting posts to your email, please unsubscribe.
If you don’t have anything positive or constructive to offer when it comes to my personal life, please keep quiet.
If you don’t want me to go home for the summer, don’t donate and don’t share the link…just please, please, please don’t sabotage my chances.
Thanks and goodnight.
– Update –
The page is still live and active and I haven’t received any further requests for confirmation of my situation, and I am hoping that it stays that way. If you’re still interested in donating, you can do so until approximately the beginning of July.